2024i hate my life right now.
i am going to learn guitar this weekend!!! and imma commit! not just search up a how to video and somehow end up watching belly dance tutorials (not from experience). i am so sick of writing songs and then forgetting how to fucking sing them because i don't have an actual tune to go with it. i also want to learn drums so i can do my more jazzy type songs. my brother knows how to play the drums but also he's 13 and the most innocent nerd and he'd be traumatized by my lyrics lol.
anyways i had club volleyball practice and it was good i guess. we did the most basic conditioning, just 3x10 burpees, pushups, hopscotches, and sit ups. idk i guess im just used to my mom doing the most violent torture workout routines ever. i am definetely NOT the strongest person lol i just thought we should've done more. besides that we did a lot of scrimaging and it was fun. i feel so awkaward playing any position besides right side though because im a leftie. im actually starting to hit better on the outside though which is good because for one rotation i have to stay on the outside for defense.
besides that i got like a shit ton of homework lol. i am so mad i haven't read my book for a while, i have been reading it since september and there are like 1000 pages, but im only on page 200 or something. i hate school so much i haven't been able to do any of my hobbies. i finally wrote a poem for the first time in a month, i posted it on this site called allpoetry and i got a lot of good reviews exept for this one pedo with a hatsune miku profile that said that i was probably really sexy. thanks i guess perv. whatever i kind of don't want to use that website anyways i feel uncomfortable enough posting my poetry on my website. i'm gonna delete all 3 of my poems on there. anyways im fucked it's 10:37 and i haven't done any of my homework. chatgpt we meet again.
ITS 2025 AND I AM NOT DEALING WITH ANYONE'S SHIT. THIS IS MY YEAR. IM NOT TELLING YALL MY BIRTHDAY BUT ITS A LUCKY SEQUENCE, IDGAF ABOUT ALLAT SHIT SAYING "omg 2025 spells wtf the first three days and the only other time (probably not true) that happened WAS IN 2020 OH NO CORONAVIRUS PT. 2" oh nah im not believing that dogshit. i never want 2020 to happen again some traumatic ass stuff happened to me then. i think it's creepy how ppl are like i miss 2020 so much and making it nostalgic. you must be some antisocial creep because that was the single worst year of my life. anyways i'm ranting ITS 2025 IMMA LIVE MY LIFE AND I AINT DEALING WITH NO SHIT!! ive been honestly a pushover this last year and that stops today! im going to be more bold this year! not give an absolute fuck what ppl think about me! i have actually grown a liking to skirts and im ok with it because i was completely against being feminine when i was younger, and it was mostly because my grandmother would force me to wear things i didn't like without telling my mom. however ive grown more comfortable in feminine clothes and i think it's a good thing (dresses are still too much tho haha). im not saying like girls should all be feminine. we all have different levels of femininity and masculinity in all of us (yes i am saying men are also naturally a bit feminine its like how we all have a bit of estrogen and testosterone, get over it im ok with admitting i have a bit of masculinity yall should be too). idk i just like that im wearing things more confidentely that i normally wouldn't feel comfortable in. also don't get me started on what femininity is i am so pissed off how society has blurred maximallism and commercialism and weakness with femininity. yall are fucked up fr.
i'm absolutely yapping right now. anyways i went to chloe's bday party + i have more friends, and i will talk about the vacation i had last week. but it is almost 2am and i need to get the fuck to sleep right now. HOLY FUCK 2025 FINNA BE AS GREAT AS 2015 LETS GO BROSKIS.
